astroluhgie

hi my name is astro

im a neurodivergent mess (but aren't we all)

i love puzzles, maths and learning new things (especially when it's level of difficulty makes me literally want to rip my hair out)

i barely talk to people! not by choice! i self isolate when i feel like shit! i need to work on that!! i also don't really have friends and i never really have! i do get really eager when i meet new people! please excuse me!

just think of me as like a puppy going to the park for the first time and sniffing everyone he meets

the little guy isn't trying to piss you off or anything, he's just excited and wants to say hi (is this cringe? does it make sense?)

i mean no harm and im trying to become less off putting, it's hard when you have no reference 🤧🤧

imagine you are 15, you've realised that there genuinely is a problem with your mental health

you're hella weird and for whatever reason talking to people and making lasting friendships has been a sisiphean task for essentially your whole life

but you make a friend at 11, she's your only good friend

your only good friend has stopped attending for a bit (she's going through one of the most traumatic events she will ever have to experience)

as selfish as it makes you sound, you wish she could come in so you wouldn't have to be alone all the time

in one of your computer science lessons you're learning how to make and edit text files with python and a gear in your head starts spinning

"what if i use this to make myself a little web diary: a cyber diary of sorts"

you start learning html (learning new things are hard for you so it takes you forever) but you're trying

fast forward three years, your life is falling apart again so you go back to learnig html

and then you find this cool ass site that means you can have a non static webpage

the birth of astroluhgie.neocities.org

there are many recources i would have not been able to make this site without

i was going to put all the links right here to credit everyone and everything i used to help me make my site but i feel as if tis section isn't big enough to make it easy to read and access

so i put it all here so it would be easy for other people to see what i used and where i got it from